I Wonder…

I wonder if you realise the pain you cause me,

When you brush me aside so callously,

Every time I take the time to tell you something,

And you barely pay attention,

I wonder if you realise the pang it shoots through me,

When I offer myself,

And you barely notice or even still- shoot me down, claiming it will be of no use,

I wonder if you notice just how much I shrink,

Every time you don’t make me a priority,

Every time I am the last to know,

I wonder if you care,

I wonder if you see me at all anymore…

I wonder if you realise that I too can leave

I wonder if you understand that with every rejection, I grow braver

I wonder if you’ll hear the sound of the door shutting…

I wonder if I’ll be too hurt to care…

September 2018- R1