Thinking of You

I spend so much time with you on my mind,

Tossing, turning

Deciding whether to reach out,

I spend so much time with you on my mind

Contemplating whether thinking of you is a good thing,

Debating and then changing my mind,

I spend so much time with you on my mind,

Trying to figure out whether it’s a weakness or a strength

Shedding tears and making ultimatums,

I spend so much time with you on my mind,

Breaking mental promises and regretting not being able to show resolve,

I spend so much time with you on my mind,

Constantly referring it to something you’d say,

Chuckling to myself,

I spend so much time with you on my mind,

I’m losing the ability to not picture your face

I spend so much time with you on my mind,

October 2018- R1