Never Know

I wish I meant enough to you to earn your time,
I wish you felt the same way I feel about you,
But, in the silences- I guess we’ll never know.
I wish you trusted me enough to fully let me in,
I wish you thought I was good enough to take the risk,
But you chose to withdraw and shut down,
I wish you were the one to reach out to me,
I wish I wasn’t left here sitting in the aftermath of your hurricane,
But as time rolls on, and I think of you less and less,
I realize just how much being a consideration to you was eating me up inside,
Just how much of my time was spent filling in voids,
I wish you didn’t leave so much space for my mind to fill
I wish you never bothered to waste my time,
And on the bad days, I wish we had never met,
But the fact is, we will never know how any of it turned out because it is all in the past, where it shall remain
Jan 2022- R1