I Thought I Knew Happiness…

I thought I knew happiness,
I thought I understood what it meant,
But these feelings,
Bubbling inside of me,
A ridiculous smile plastered across my face,
I thought I knew happiness,
I thought I knew joy,
But now I feel like I was only play acting,
Being accepted for who I am,
Not for who they want me to be,
I thought I knew happiness,
I thought I comprehended passion,
All of it was faking,
Electricity charged through fingertips,
I thought I knew happiness,
I thought I processed trust,
But, this one ripped me wide open,
I thought I knew keeping a wall up,
But it was instant, I looked in your eyes and I knew I would fall,
I thought I knew trusting and opening up,
Yet, this was a slow, consistent, charming,
I thought I knew love till I found you…
March 2024